The Sketch Newtonian: New Year, New Thoughts

New Year's was great. We didn't have a big party, debauchery was kept to a minimum, but nonetheless, it was fantastic. It was just nice to have an excuse to spend time with good people and get a little crazy.

I should mention up front that Nintendo Wii is the greatest game system EVER made and contributed a great deal to the fun that was had that fateful night.

I should also say that I have never given much credence to any beliefs that entering a new year changes anything about us. In that sense, New Year's Eve is just another day, when primetime television happens to continue until it is midnight in California. Even so, something about this year has allowed me to turn a corner in my life.

Those close to me know that the holidays have not been easy this year because I have been hurting a great deal from reasons inappropriate to broadcast in a public forum available worldwide. It is enough to know that recent events have put me in a position where I feel a great deal of pain, and I could not figure out for the life of me why God would want me to hurt this much. Driving home on January 1st, I figured it out. He doesn't. I wasn't reading anything, there was no song on the radio that told me this, it just hit me.

God wants less than anything for us to feel pain. He hates it even. Still, if we are in a place and we need be somewhere else, something has to happen, and as change is a part of life, so is pain.

It was at that point that I realized that no one was trying to hurt me. No one had forgotten me. This is all simply part of life and I have to be OK with that fact. Once I am OK with that, I can finally be where I am supposed to be. Balance is then restored to the universe (or at least to mine), and happiness is once again an available option.

The funny thing is that I have no idea what the reason for the change is, or where I am supposed to end up. I think that keeps a lot of us from accepting change, and, consequently, causes more pain. While it is never comfortable, confusion and ignorance are also part of life.

There are plenty of things in our life which we can actively affect. Worrying about those we cannot affect is as useless as pounding sand. I think that Alcoholics Anonymous has a prayer saying something to that effect.

I am pretty sure I have avoided putting song lyrics in my blog up to this point. Today, however, I will break tradition and leave you with some poignant (sp?) words from Relient K.

You said, "I know that this will hurt, but if I don't break your heart, things will just get worse. If the burden seems too much to bear remember the end will justify the pain it took to get us there."

I love you all.

The Sketch Newtonian

Rockin Steady

New Year, New Thoughts

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